I don’t know if I’m the only one who asks myself this kind of question. I doubt it. The truth is; we get curious of who we are at a certain point in our lives. It may be at a time when things weren’t going well for you. It may have been after someone asked you a deep question and you can’t answer. It maybe even be times you’ve shocked yourself with your actions and recently found habits!
Whatever the reason you have for asking the question up there, it is one of the most important questions (if it is not the most important question) you could ever ask yourself. I’ve always asked myself that question. Sincerely yours, I’ve always had turbulent mind because of how my mind works (over thinking). I just want to know who I am, maybe the answer will give me the peace/clarity that I’m looking for.
Years back, I ‘discovered’ myself to be an introvert, loved this and that and so on. Growing up, I’m no longer the same – I’m more outspoken to those close to me (I used to write letters to everyone I want to speak to, including my parents. Lol). I’m no longer the Primary 5 girl that wants to be a medical doctor, Hahaha. Things have changed, I’ve picked up habits that I thought I’d never be able to do. I’ve dropped some characters too. One minute I’m feeling so gay, I don’t even want to talk to a soul the next minute – I’d just want to hide under the cover of my blanket and just cry.
So, what exactly defines me? If these feelings, likes, dislikes, emotions, habits, do’s and donts define me; am I not in trouble?? You mean this minute I AM SUCH A COOL BEAUTIFUL GIRL and the next minute I AM A ‘MOOD SWINGER’?? (Pardon my English) You mean because I didn’t become a medical doctor, I am not who I’m meant to be?? You mean the moment I change one of my habit, my identity automatically changes. Am I the only one confused here??
No, what I do/did couldn’t have defined me, else I would have been something that may fade away when that thing is lost. What I feel don’t define also, my emotions don’t stay in one place!! So, what defines me?? What defines us??
To know what define anything, we check from the manufacturer, right?? That’s what we’ll do in this series. If you’ve not learnt anything, take this home – What you do or feel do not define you! Leave your comments behind, I’ll love to hear of what you think about this write up. I’ll see you tomorrow (winks).